Utilize and Maquillage

What is utilize? What is maquillage? Anyone think about it before? Is it asked u holding three bottles of water? Or when have subjects still do not understand just remember still got that person? Or that in order to have a convenient cars then just be friend? Which is the utilize and maquillage in the end? I've been confused. I used to think, well-intentioned rewarded is sincere in helping other people, does not require anything in return. Of course, if the person will think, then they will cherish what you help. Unfortunately, if help wrong people, then till the end will get the opposite effect. When there are heavy bags want you to take, Wa, you are a nice person! When you cheated and angry, she was the first person that suspect you! When accompany you shopping to buy something, then I want to go home to do my assignment! When a woman said do the same thing then LET GO! When there is homework that not understand, then can you help me? When no then can lie you in front of you. What is this society? Although there is someone told me that if you can, please try not to use the utilize and maquillage this two words with friendship, because it hurt. Yes, nothing wrong the word utilize and maquillage are very hurt. However, these two words always are the reason that make the friendship can not be long. I do not know what are others people think about, i just know, if you want people to respect you, please respect yourself and respect others first. If not, nobody will respect you! What you do not like others people to treat you, then you also do not use that method to treat that people. Why when you lie others people you can use "We lie you is for your own good" to be the reason? When others people lie you and tell you the same thing you will feel hurt? So please think it back, it is that time when you all lie people is really for his own good? Or you all do not believe what said by him, so that you all feel he will angry when you all still communicate and interact with others people? Do you all trust him from starting until the end? Sorry to said that, i don't think so you all believe him! Because you all do not believe what he said! Then create a story and lie him! When it was exposed, then you said all we do is for your own good? Do you think it really good for him? Do you know at the same time you all hurt him? Somemore asking did he suspect others. Everything was pass, don't want mention about it anymore. Now just do it what you all want, nobody will go to disturb you all. One day then you all will realize why that person will angry at that time and what should you all do! Think about it! Not child anymore! 19 years old already, should be mature already!

Do not promise if u cant make it

Unless you can do it, it is better not to promise to someone else easily because it will only let your commitment become worthles. Many people like never thought someone promised something, and then in the end failed to do so. Like this will not only let the people who wait for you disappointed, but also let that person feel doubt to your commitment. Even no longer believe that commitment to you. After disappointing, is not a simple three words - I am sorry can be solved, if said to many times I am sorry then that will only let more people will feel that I am sorry you did not have any meaning, moreover he is waiting for you to achieve the promise rather than waiting for yours I am sorry. And sometimes you have promised is not achieved, some people will be hurt, that time is not really so simple I am sorry. The reason is same as like after A slap B and then A just say I am sorry to B. I am sorry that will make people hurt would rather not. So as far as possible, please dp not say I am sorry, too often but please think twice before promised, if not then not only the commitment will become worthles, your apologies also will let people feel perfunctory.

只是想防止再次受伤

我现在所做的一切，都是为了防止我自己再次陷入受伤的状态。我的心现在已经有很多个伤口了，没有多余的能力再去接受多出来的伤口，所以我必须学会让自己不再受伤。说实在的，我想恭喜两个人，因为我以前是一个很相信朋友的人，是他们改变了我的想法，改变了我对人类的信任。我想恭喜他们，他们做到了，做到一个人会因为害怕而不敢再去相信朋友，害怕自己会再次受伤而不敢再相信人类，他们做到了！恭喜！

因为他们让我学会了很多东西，学会了就算人家有事也不可以管或帮，不如会变成鸡婆的人！早上起来一定要笑，不如人家以为你在不爽！绝对不可以太过关心人，不如世界末日他会第一个拿刀过来捅死你！偷看别人的日记是没有错的，看了就要把内容和别人分享不用道歉！一件事自己做了没有错可是别人做了一定错！自己玩超出别人的极限导致别人生气完全是别人的错！哇！算一算，我还真是学会了很多东西！最重要的是，做人要自私自利！不用站在人家的角度来想！站在别人的角度来想是大错特错的行为！

忍受不了对方而死的丧礼！只有你讨厌吗？我打从知道你是娇生惯养的人后就不喜欢你了！请你不要教坏人！想利用人也有个程度的！若要人不知，除非己莫为！举头三尺有神明！我知道有人是天主教的，所以不相信！不过佛教的就好记住！人在做，天在看！拿出你的右手，摸摸看自己的良心！看你现在在做的事情是对的还是错的！有时候做人不要做到太过分！讲话要凭良心的！不是想说就说的！有时候，沉默只是一个用来保护自己的工具，而不是那个人什么都不知道！

事实上，保持沉默是为了保护自己吗?是！知道真相即使再怎样心痛，也要忍下来！不可以在其他人面前表露！当你表露时，别人只会把你的诉苦当作说他们坏话，每一件对他们不利的事情，都会被看成是你一手造成的或对“朋友”绝情！别人是绝对不会看到当他们对你绝情绝义时的一面的！所以你只可以选择沉默来掩饰自己所懂的一切，即使已经受到很大的伤害也不能暴露！因为暴露后，更多的伤害会接着来！别人就会开始说出：“他说的话，听就好，不用相信！”当身边的人都有这种想法时，你就名副其实的是个千古罪人了！

总之现在我所相信的是我所看到的!如果想要我再次相信这世界上有友情这个东西！我想说，给我时间，不过多长我就不懂！因为不管伤再怎样痊愈，伤疤还是会存在着的！

I am such of person in your mind

Time will change everything is true! We have known each other about seven years, because the mind concept is very different from the ordinary, not enough understanding of each other and said a few words to hurt each other, has it ever occurred to the position of others!? Concerned about the safety of others, can be said to be "KEPO", asked a common problem, people think that showing off. I thought only two people who not understand me, but now i found still gt others are there! I believe everyone of my friend, but because of need my account password and I do not give to then say that I was not so easy to believe others person. Do not say with me that need the account password then how I know they need! Precisely for this reason that easily export I believe that the person is not easy, but at others! Some more said like that in front of others, how will other people think I am? I was trying very hard to play the game that we play together, in order to win the first, stay up late at night several times to set aside more seeds and harvest. But what people say? Must be hack one, every time my efforts will be seen as such, I try to is for what?

What is a friend in the end?

What is a friend in the end? Someone has been told me now we call each other brothers because we need each other. When we no longer need each other, then that nothing between us. I was very angry listening to that. He treat friends as what in the end?

Recently, I found that I began to agree with what he said. A friend only to be used for exploit. The word "friends" has no meaning on when the value of after use. Because I have always been trash, When useful when used with, when no used on the left side, when the thought of using again, then taken and then recycling and use it again.

This is what I want? Definitely Not! My mind friend there are good things to share, bad things we share. Growth and learning under support each other. But the reality is very cruel! Such a simple thing has become a far-fetched. The mind concept of most people now, "friend" is a useful things. When needed and called him out, do not need him then never think about him. Call them come out because no enough people and they want to assemble people, they never thought this would cause people hurt. One person happily going out of the appointment, because his friends ask him out to play, but only found the end of the day It was because the original provisional will not be able to attend his seat, person's heart to know how sad it would be? Has never considered it. Not as good as it will not make things look like.

Watch an idol drama, called "命中注定我爱你" I like this idol drama, as he look like photocopies of real-life drama. A friend is like a sticky, easy to find, convenient and practical, and can easily tear up after use, and never sticky hands. In this society that is so, why? The reason is very simple. Even though they know that they have become sticky, but they would not gainst because they worry, worry what? They worry when they gainst to be sticky, there will be no use value. And he will be the so-called friends left him. The world is so lamentable!

已经对生活感到厌倦了

不知不觉中，我已经活了十九年。我的十九年过得比别人的十九年还要不一样。从小就被人家看不起，因为家里经济比不上别人。有时候有些东西想要买都得要忍下来。为了就是存多一点钱以后可以用。被别人说成没有童年的小孩，什么话都没得讲。思想跟实际上十九岁的人完全不一样，所以即使交到同年纪的朋友，感情也持续不了多久。因为想法不同，我倒是和年纪比较大的朋友谈得来。可能就像他们说讲的，我把事情想得太过复杂。就因为这样，让我觉得上天真是带我“不薄”。每次我做一件事，把事情做后的后果想完，必定那个后果会发生。可是我以我的经验和别人说时，别人只回答一句：“不用担心，不会发生的”，然后想也不想，就做了，可是奇怪的是他们都可以成功。如果我没有订好计划直接作一定会失败，可是为什么别人却可以成功。别人做事情事事顺利，我做事情却阻碍多多。咳，真是活到有点显了。

别人可以活到那么轻松，为什么我要活到那么艰难。在当兵时，遇到一个朋友，他很善良，愿意为别人牺牲。他曾经告诉我天将降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。虽然我听了后，有种被安慰的感觉。可是我选择相信。可是最近的事情，让我觉得我快要熬不下去了。明明大家都是人类，为什么这么的不公平！别人对我无情没有错，我对别人无情是我错。好心招雷劈，狗咬吕洞宾。别人做错不需道歉，我即使没做错都得要道歉！

对，我是脾气暴躁。我不喜欢人家看不起我，因为从小就让人瞧不起，所以谁瞧不起我，我就会让谁知道，不是只有他们能做到，只要有心，谁也能做到的！谁会想要在成为笑柄，被别人瞧不起的环境下长大？谁有站在别人的立场想过？为什么有些人就是身在福中不知福，明明已经被家人宠到坏到不可以再坏了，还是有东西可以嫌。自己做什么都可以可是别人却不能做！为什么这世界有这种人的存在。

已经对这个世界的人类失去了信心，没有人可以让我相信，什么情都是假的，这个世界只有无情，胜者为王，败者为寇，只可以靠自己，靠别人就等于抱着一粒定时炸弹，随时都可能爆炸。等爆炸时，他因为已经消失而不觉得痛，然而，抱着他的人就得要受到严重的伤害。这个世界就是这样！